"Instead He gave us an angel..."

If I am going to be completely honest, I have literally dreaded this weekend for months, 7 months to be exact.  This weekend should have been the weekend we would be bringing home our first baby.  Our home should be filled with all kinds of baby furniture, toys, and tiny baby clothes, organized and put into the perfect spot. Obviously things didn't go quite as we had planned.  The third bedroom of our home still has boxes and things that need to be unpacked but I keep putting it off because I dread the idea that the room should already be a nursery. So this weekend of course I have noticed every pregnant women and every tiny baby, seems as though I could have spotted them from miles away.

The good thing about this weekend is that we had planned a getaway trip, very soon after the miscarriage.  We spent the weekend in a cozy cabin, also known as "Beary Comfy", with my parents and enjoyed having no schedule, sleeping as late as we wanted and just relaxing in front of a warm fireplace.  We are entirely too much and did a little too much shopping but I'm okay with that since tomorrow it's back to reality. 

I am now looking forward to the holiday season, staying busy and spending time with our family and friends, praying that next year God has something amazing in store for our little family.  Thanks to everyone who prays for us and for all the encouraging words.  I know our God is good and soon enough He will reveal His great plan to us.  Until then, I'm extra thankful to come home to an amazing husband and two cute pups that love me no matter what. 

 “How very quietly you tiptoed into our world, silently, only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left upon our hearts.’” -Unknown

“We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” -E.M. Forester