The Lewis Crew: Two and Counting....

Here is my first attempt of blogging and actually trying to be dedicated to keeping this updated :-) Lots has been going on in the Lewis family since we got married, both good and bad.  We moved to a new town, started new jobs, bought our first house and then quickly sold it, only to buy our second house which we are now slowly turning it into a cozy home.  So along with getting married and settling into our first home comes the idea of having a family which is something that CJ and I have always wanted.  So just to catch you up on the family idea, here is our story!

January of 2012, CJ and I started trying to start our own little family.  Yes, we have the puppies but were hoping for a few more two legged creatures in our house.  After 14 months of no luck, several doctors appointments and various medications we finally learned that we were expecting our first child! We were both surprised and so excited, hardly even knowing how to handle the news and who to tell first.  Of course I called my doctor who scheduled me for my first appointment which would be around 9 weeks.  The day comes for our first appointment and we were both nervous as just a few days before I had a few symptoms that things might not quite be right.  It turns out my gut feeling was right.  During the first ultrasound, we saw our first little baby however there was no heartbeat and the baby was smaller than he/she should have been by this point.  I can't even begin to describe the devastation and sadness I felt after losing this baby and it took several months before I could really even think about babies or look at pregnant women without wanting to just curl up and cry.  The ONLY good thing that came from this experience was that my relationship with God grew much stronger as I tried to understand and figure out why in the world this could be happening to us.  I found out through scriptures and lots of prayers that I am much stronger than I ever believed I could be and that with God on my side I could get through this terrible experience.  I was also given the opportunity to meet and talk with other women that had gone through the same experiences which was a blessing and very comforting.  So after physically healing from the miscarriage and feeling like we were emotionally ready, we decided it was time to start trying again. 

This is where the good news comes!  We found out a few weeks ago that I was pregnant again! The first feelings of course are excitement, but in the back of my mind there is also worry and fear that something could happen to this baby also.  This is where our faith and trust in God has got to kick in or it will be a long first trimester.  I had my first appointment on Monday, where I learned that I was 6 weeks and 3 days along.  Initially I thought that I would be 8 weeks by now but obviously my calculations were not correct!  And we saw the most amazing thing...a tiny baby with a tiny heart that just fluttered away and that we could even hear, 123 bpm!!  It was so incredible and like nothing I could describe (as all you moms know).  So with this good news also came along a few concerning points.  The technicians and doctor were slightly concerned about the placement of the baby, that he/she is implanted lower than what they normally see at this point and that were was not much fluid around the baby.  So we were told that at this point we are in the "gray zone".  This baby could be completely fine, which I know God can take care of he/she if this is His plan or things could not go so well.  It will be a waiting game for now.  We do get to go back on Monday for a second ultrasound to determine if these issues are getting better and praying that the baby still has a strong heartbeat.  I know our God is bigger than any of this and we are praying that His plan is for this baby to grow strong and healthy so that in about 8 months we will have a new member in our family.  If you are reading this, we would certainly appreciate any prayers, specifically praying that the baby can move up, for more fluid around the baby and that he/she will still have a strong heartbeat at our next appointment.  Here are a few pictures of the little munchkin!

He or she is certainly a tiny thing now but we pray for this baby to continue growing each and every day!! 

 

"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23